Hey everyone. Just an update here. As you might have noticed (or maybe you haven't), I've stored my art gallery as of about a week ago. Not because I'm mad at DA or anything, and not because I'm leaving. I don't really have a good reason, other than I feel like I need to start over. I'm not getting a new account. I don't have my art anywhere on the internet right now. I'm still figuring it out. I know nobody will really look at my art if I just put it on a blogger account, but then again, it doesn't really matter, if I post some art it's because I feel like it, not because I want people to say anything.
In other news, I just got back from Florida.
Once I stop obsessing over the title of my new website I'll get off my ass and post some artwork...
I just found my pile of paintings that I had put up at a shindig in order to sell them. They're recent, as in a month old or so. And I'm not attached to them. I need to get rid of them fast, or paint over them. If anyone's interested in buying any tell me. Of course I have no pictures of them up right now.
I'm very hostile towards my old art. I'm going to recycle all my sketchbooks that are over 3 years old. I'm cleaning out my room, re-doing everything, and getting a new environment for myself. I just don't care about my old artwork. I feel really restricted right now. I want to go back to school.
I always end up typing more than I mean to. Eeaaah.
I'm deciding what to do with my artwork. I've thought about getting a more "professional" site like the ones hosted by Other People's Pixels (one of my friends has one) but it does cost money and I'd have to be sure I'd actually use it...
Another option I have is Flickr (which I think I had an account on for like 2 days once and then deleted it because I didn't like it... Or was that Photobucket?), which I dunno. I have lots of other photography as well that would make good stock pictures (I'm an animal stalker and have some pretty good ones).
I've also thought about getting a blog for my artwork (I used to do the Weekly Fetus one but I couldn't keep up making them all during school so it died). I don't know if I'd update it much though. If I do that, I have to come up with a name for it also, since blogger accounts have those headings on the top. Just sayin'.
In other news, I'm working on a Flowerface head for my wall. I got an image in my head of one of my Brain creatures on one of those hunting plaques, which I thought would be kind of funny and satirical. Then I remembered there was already a tutorial for something like that (a werewolf that missmonster did a while ago). Although the thing I'm doing is different since I'm not putting fur on it, so we'll see what happens.
I went on a website that sells foam-ish taxidermy molds (Van Dykes, they're really nice, I had to talk to a customer service person because I had to switch something) and bought a coyote one (for Flowerface), a full body fox (because it was cool looking and on sale) and a rabbit (because it was cheap). SO now I have a few unfinished things in my basement...
The rabbit one... I feel a need to make a neon colored rabbit (since I've drawn a neon green one before) and bought a neon orange paint pen. We have a huge box of white faux fur from my brother, who had made a teddy bear for his then-girlfriend (I know, I laughed also, but good effort). And coloring it with the paint marker works quite well... I finished half of it while watching Craig Ferguson tonight, then I ran out of hot glue. If it turns out okay I might try to sell it at my local art gallery where I volunteer, and possibly make more.
Anyway, I've been taking pictures of my progress and I might post them on whatever new home I get for my artwork (once that happens).
When I was about 5 something really weird happened to me that I still remember. It's hard to explain but I'm obviously going to attempt it right now.
I woke up at some odd hour of dawn- the sun was coming up and nobody was awake in my house except for me. I remember walking down the hallway by my room and going past the 'bridge' (and being too short to see over the rails). The sunrise must have been a fantastic color because everything seemed pink and purple and gray. As I was wandering around I kept hearing music and choir-like voices. I left my room and walked down the hall to follow the sounds and find their source. There would be a noise and I would echo it by humming or singing something. Then I would hear more, a call-and-response type thing. I don't remember specific melodies, but I do remember it was mostly just interval-sounding "music" with not very many notes. It was really weird, I can only describe it as what someone would imagine angels to sound like. And really, I'm not religious in the slightest, so I have no idea what it was.
I'm wondering if I actually heard music, as in I had a seizure or something, or if it was in my head (maybe my young brain composed some music), and has gotten amplified over time by my memory. When it happened I was a child and didn't think much of it, but I swear I was actually hearing things. The reason I got up was to /follow/ the music and find the source of the singing. I know it was nobody in my house, it sounded completely unlike anything I've ever heard.
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Whenever I think about it I try to come up with an explanation of what might have happened. I still don't know how to explain it... Maybe something weird happened to my brain when I was little. At the moment I'm kind of afraid of developing seizures, since I read I could be susceptible to them since I have synesthesia (I hope researchers find out that's not true haha). But what I mean to say is that maybe that incident was me having a childhood seizure. Is that possible to get a seizure once and then it goes away? I also get moments where I taste things randomly, which could count as a seizure. Although these aren't full-blown taste things, it's more like the idea of a taste. I discussed the taste issue on a website about synesthesia and nobody really knows what it is, so I don't know what to think. However, some people I talked to experience the same thing.
ANYWAY, that's all I've got for now. I'm doing some paintings for a friend's boyfriend's work party-type-thing, so I'm going to go work on those.
I'm going to California tomorrow with a few friends until the 30th.
I'm losing interest a bit in DeviantArt. I guess it's just because I don't really care enough to take the effort to submit things. I dunno. I like looking at peoples' artwork, but not so much about submitting my stuff. Actually, I don't like looking at most peoples' artwork. A lot of people I don't even know why I'm watching them, lol. Harsh.
Anyway. I'll think about it. Also, don't bother saying "don't leeeeaaaave!", because I'm not leaving DA, I just might not submit things anymore.
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